Because I am a glutton for pain, I’m preparing for another dance team audition. However, since last Saturday, I’ve been wallowing in self-pity and a jar of Nutella. Now, it is time to get back to being strict. I need to drop a couple of pounds by mid to the end of October. Isn’t being a dancer glamorous?

To keep me accountable, I will be blogging my workouts and my meals.

Here’s hoping this works!

In the last few weeks since my last post, I have been rejected from four auditions.

It’s been a little over a month since my last post. I know that dancers live with rejection everyday; It’s part of the process. However, that thought doesn’t make the rejection any less painful.

The only thing I can do now is pick myself up, go back to the gym, get my butt in dance classes and hope for the best. I do believe that things happen for a reason but it would be nice if the reason revealed itself sooner rather than later.

Last year, I didn’t blog about some of my auditions out of embarrassment and a lack of time. This year, I’m even more embarrassed but a little less shy about it.

Today, I went to an audition for an NBA pro dance team. These auditions are all about looks. You have to have the right look. Big hair, pretty face, lean body, and practically no clothing on.

The way the cuts work is Round 1 is a “freestyle.” Rounds 2 and 3 are choreography rounds. If you make it past Round 3, you come back the next day for “Finals” which has you pitted up against the veterans. If you pass Finals, you get invited to “Training Camp” where they test you out in a rehearsal setting. If you make it through that without getting cut, you are on the team.

Last year, I was cut at Round 1.

I thought I was more prepared this year. I was more physically fit, I had taken more classes… I felt like I had it in the bag. That was a negative. I was still cut at Round 1. Maybe it was my look. Maybe it was because my shorts were starting to slide down (I’ve been losing a lot of weight for these auditions).

Well, I always think of this as my tryout audition for the real team that I’m hoping to make. In two weeks, I will be auditioning for a hockey pro dance team. Here’s to hoping that with better fitting shorts and two more weeks to slim down and tone up that i will not get cut 1st Round.

I’m the featured jumper today at Dancing Branflake. She has some flexibility tips for you in the same post, as well. ❤

Alright. I have to get the following done before audition #2.

-Buy suntan pantyhose (not tights as those are too “light” colored)
-Get my hair colored (My roots are growing in, it’s time)
-Get my nails did (either get press on nails or do ’em myself, I have no shame. But if I can fit it in, I’ll def go for a manicure)
-Get some new dermablend to cover up the tats
-Take Tuesday or Wednesday (or both) class
-Get pre-set ‘freestyle’ down
-Pray really hard

Yep. Hopefully it all works out for me. I want to at least get past round 1. If that happens, then hallelujah!

This New York Times article on the life of a freelance dancer speaks to me. It’s definitely something I relate to. I understand how hard it is to continue dancing audition after audition. It’s so wonderful, though, when you finally do make that one audition and you get to do what you love.

Maybe this is a good sign for me.

I have been working my tushie off (literally) for audition #2. It’s a pro dance/cheer team so of course, I had to shed some pounds. I’m now 6 lbs lighter and very excited.

I have also had to take plenty of hip hop and pro-league prep classes. Oh my gosh, I never knew what I was missing when I refused to take hip hop classes. It’s absolutely fabulous! Musical, hard hitting, heart pumping… I have a new found love for hip hop.

Although, I could do without all the hairography. My neck has been so sore from doing so many hair flips. I know it looks sexy, but seriously?
(Sidenote: There’s a whole Dance Spirit article about it.)

Hopefully it’s all worth it. I am working so hard and I know that in the end, I can accomplish whatever I put my mind to.

As I browsed through my google rss feed, I noticed a blog posted from Pointe Magazine mentioning Misty Copeland.

Misty Copeland started ballet at the age of 13 which is a pretty late age to start for ballerinas. Most start their intensive training around 7 or 8 these days. I suffered from stopping my training and then having to restart it at the age of 16. By then, I was a junior in high school. I wanted to keep going, though, and decided to become a dance major. Now I am dancing for a theme park. Not too shabby, huh?

Now, though, I am thoroughly inspired to keep training because if others can make it, I can too. I just need that extra push to make it into concert dance. Plus, then I can look like this:

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Gettin’ Thin


As a dancer, I realize there are standards that one, as a performer, must attain. Never mind the fact that dancers train for YEARS to attain technique, musicality, freedom of movement, etc. They also need to look good while doing it.

Yes, Friends, I’m talking about the wonderful world of dancer body image.

The times have changed and girls don’t have to be stick-thin to be in a concert dance company, nor do they have to be stick thin to dance in the parade I’m in (in fact, we have quite a few ‘curvy’ girls). However, other places such as top ballet companies and professional cheer/dance teams require a lean look. Unfortunately, that does not come easily to me.

Since my total rejection from my last audition, I’ve been kicking it into gear and working out. I hate working out. Mindless repetitions do not suit me. But, ya gotta do what ya gotta do. In the last 5 days, I have lost 3 lbs! I know have 7 more lbs to go until my goal weight. Accomplishing something feels so good in light of my latest letdown. Let’s hope my hard work pays off.

Do no fret, Friends! I am definitely being safe with my working out. Funny what happens when you give up fried foods.

T-minus 24 Days until my next audition!